[ Calling it a plan seems rather generous. Gil has no illusions that Rau will simply become happy through a kiss as though he were a princess in a fairytale. This isn't a plan so much as it is an investment, a probing path forward to see where a plan might start taking shape.
It is also just... nice, really nice. Rau is suddenly back in control and Gil can't complain about it one bit when it means that Rau is also all over him. ]
My desire. [ he says and it is half an addition and half a correction. ] To have you as you are, even if it's playing with fire.
[ An ouroboros of preferences then, because for Gil to want the authentic violent and untamed Rau, Rau first needs to want to be violent and untamed.
Though maybe 'violent and untamed' is not the right words for the position they have settled into here. Rau may not have completed the movement of coming into Gil's lap, but he's given Gil an excellent vantage point to pull him exactly there.
They're both dead, these bodies are likely nothing but psychological manifestations of what they think should be happening physically, but his heartbeat still speeds up in a way that he finds genuinely a little embarrassing. Like a teenager all over again. Gross. ]
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It is also just... nice, really nice. Rau is suddenly back in control and Gil can't complain about it one bit when it means that Rau is also all over him. ]
My desire. [ he says and it is half an addition and half a correction. ] To have you as you are, even if it's playing with fire.
[ An ouroboros of preferences then, because for Gil to want the authentic violent and untamed Rau, Rau first needs to want to be violent and untamed.
Though maybe 'violent and untamed' is not the right words for the position they have settled into here. Rau may not have completed the movement of coming into Gil's lap, but he's given Gil an excellent vantage point to pull him exactly there.
They're both dead, these bodies are likely nothing but psychological manifestations of what they think should be happening physically, but his heartbeat still speeds up in a way that he finds genuinely a little embarrassing. Like a teenager all over again. Gross. ]