[ In an ideal reality, Rau wouldn't exist. Something like him would have never been created, and he'd never have had to suffer the way he did. The thought runs through this whole disagreement, an undeniable undercurrent they must both be aware of, but Gil can't bring himself to say it out loud.
If he did, he'd open himself up to a question far too harsh.
"Choosing between the reality where you don't fall for the wrong people and are happy and this one, where you could meet Rau, which would you pick?"
It's not that he doesn't know the answer. It's that speaking the answer out loud would unravel him on the spot.
Gil grabs Rau's hand before he can fully pull it back. ]
You enjoy invoking her when it's convenient. Why? Do you truly believe that you alone can't hurt me enough?
[ It's hard not to feel like you're using his ex as a shield here!! ]
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If he did, he'd open himself up to a question far too harsh.
"Choosing between the reality where you don't fall for the wrong people and are happy and this one, where you could meet Rau, which would you pick?"
It's not that he doesn't know the answer. It's that speaking the answer out loud would unravel him on the spot.
Gil grabs Rau's hand before he can fully pull it back. ]
You enjoy invoking her when it's convenient. Why? Do you truly believe that you alone can't hurt me enough?
[ It's hard not to feel like you're using his ex as a shield here!! ]